I wanna share with you my thoughts, maybe you can help
I am 25 Male, Engineer
I have bad thoughts about killing myself for a long time
I know this is a sin, and my life is not my own but it's God's own
And i know also that who kills himself doesn't go to heaven
And many of the dead now want only one single minute from my life to repent
I know that many people in the world wants just half of what God gave me from everything, health, money, time ....etc
I know i am not thankful for all things i have, and for letting me alive until this moment i've written those words
And my parents will suffer very much after doing that madness
I know this is from the devil
Unfortunately I know almost most of things and despite i wanna do it
Notice: i pray, i go to church and i confess regularly, i am even a deacon and i know many hymns
I was or i think i am still bad guy, i have done many bad things in my life and still doing, i have no actual friends.
Notice: i don't need someone to talk to.
And the important thing that i don't blame God for any, it's me who bad is.
Thank you for your time to read all these.
You are a good community, i've registered to write this post.
Many Thanks for help in advance.