I have just graduated from a university with a finance degree. For the past 6 months I have been looking for a job all day long. I would constantly receive refusal letters (about 400 of them) for I do not have any work experience since as an international student I was not allowed to work. Despite all those negative responds I still believe that God will reward me for my hard work thus I continue looking for a job. Since I have lots of free time I decided to use it to get closer to God. I pray more and contemplate about our Lord a lot thus salvation became the most important part of my life.
My husband is working very hard to provide for us and I have been begging God to give me a job so that I can ease the pressure on him. As a wife I should be a help to him and it tears me apart when I see him tired after work. I do not know if it will be pleasing to God if I went to work any job (cleaning, serving…). It would take away form my time with God and It would probably make me lose any hope for a job in my career. I already feel worthless and working such jobs would just make me feel worse after all the effort and dreams I have put into finishing my education.
I do not want to upset God and I have no Idea how to tell His will