as you all know, I have someone special in my life ..... and now it is time to plan for church engagment but there are some obsticles......
we agreed that once we get married we will move to USA where i live. and he agreed, and we have build our relationship based on that, and now when we are about to do a church engagment 1. his grandma died about 6 months ago and he doesn't want a big party, he wants something very very very small, which is ok but his parents seem like they don't want to spend much because even the invitation cards they don't want to do....!! 2. he wants to live in egypt because he says he is about to get the job he have always wanted ( a college professor) and remember he is a christian and the odds are he will be treated bad and he might not last! and i can't live in egypt!! my parents are leaving this descion up to me to decide! and i can't make a descion at all!! I don't know what god has planned for me and i don't know what to do! I love him and i want to grow old by him but i can't live in EGYPT! it is impossible.... !!! i still have like 8 more yrs of school and I have to finish them in US! and even after i get my PhD there is no way on earth i am going to work in egypt!!!
One thing that is making me realy think about this is that..... we were supposed to get our church engagement 2 yrs ago.... what has happened to delay it is that first time immigration paper work and if we went my brothers would have been held for egyption army.... 2nd time it has been delayed is that my uncle's death and it wasnt even 40 days if we would have gone to egypt, and now when it is time to go he changed plans..... do you think this is a sign from god saying i have postoned this 'till now so you would know that he wants to live in egypt and not in US?
SIMPLY, he can't change what we agreed on! because what we agreed helped us build our relationship!
I need an advice, I need someone to tell me what to do!!! I am lost I can't think of anything.... I can't let this bother me any longer because of my school work!!
your help is greatly appriciate it!