Sorry for another long post on a topic we've already covered, but I would like some further input on this. My father is getting baptized tomorrow in that odd anti-Christian cult I've posted about before
, and it has me wondering: Is there something specific I should be doing about this situation? I am deeply unhappy that this is happening, of course, though I'm having trouble finding a way to express it or cope with it. It is hard to look at something that someone who you love is so happy about and essentially rain all over their parade about it, you know? Granted, our Lord and Savior did nothing less than that when confronting the comfortable and self-satisfied people of Biblical times, but I don't know...on the other hand, St. Joseph certainly believed in Him! :-\
Anyway, conversations with a few people whose opinions I deeply respect have got me wondering if I haven't been too "hands off" about this whole situation, and if so how I might go about changing that in a way that will be effective, stern, but still respectful and honorable. I must admit that there is a part of my mind that tells me "Just lie low and don't cause trouble for another month and you will be 1,200 miles away and in another state!", but I also know that heresy is everywhere
, so it does no good to run away from it here and think that the situation will somehow right itself. We're talking about a man's soul
here, and not just any random man on the street, but my own father. And besides, that's the hardly the example given by our Lord, the Fathers, and all the saints. Heck, St. Nicholas punched Arius in the face
, and now Arianism is entering my house and not only am I not
punching anyone, I have a hard time mustering a concrete example of anything I've done other than praying a lot and getting into a few arguments at the beginning of this whole debacle!
It is a sad, sad day when praying doesn't seem like it's enough. I don't know. Maybe I wasn't specific enough? I prayed that God guide him (and me) to the truth, because I know that the truth is Orthodox Christianity, which is both Apostolic and Trinitarian (while this cult is neither), so I didn't figure that God would need further specifiers, being as He is
truth. Maybe I should have said "God, please guide him away from the snares of the devil in the form of this glittering mirage that calls itself Your church. Show him what a lie it is, so that he will flee from it." But alas I was not that specific.
I don't know. I feel like such a failure. I've prayed and prayed, and tried to stay as respectful and hopeful as I can be, but now he's joining this awful, awful thing
that denies the Holy Trinity and the divinity of Christ and I feel like I have no choice but to watch it happen and pray that he comes to his senses and leaves (even though I know he's not going to, if left to his own devices). And it's at least partially my fault that it is this way! What can I do, people? This is killing me! I feel really scared and guilty that I've been so very weak and unfaithful. This is really something that I'll have to answer for, isn't it? What a terrible way to live this is, and to know that it is waiting for me in the future, too...ugh. I just cannot stand it. Please help me! What on earth can be done?