Well, its my first year at uni, and things arent going too well. Ive only have 2 quizes so far in chemistry and i did horrible on both of them, but I studied soooo hard and prayed soooo hard. Yet for some reason, when test time comes i just cant perform, i feel so under pressure. I want to be a dentist so badly, but more importantly than even that, i want to know that I can do anything if I put my mind to it. Ive never had a problem with chemistry, in fact its always been my favourite subject, yet the Prof i have makes his quizes SOOOO difficult. I even checked out the quizes the other profs are giving of the same coarse and I was able to do them soo easily. I guess i was unlucky to get the hardest prof.
Guys im really scared, it seems like no matter how hard I try and how confident I am, and HOW MUCH I PRAY, God is not helping me and I dont know why. I really need your prayers, if i dont become a dentist it wont be that bad, but to know that I cant do something literally KILLS me. Today I had my 2nd quiz in chem and my first exam in pyschology both on the same day, and i was SOOOOO stressed. The chem quiz was in the morning and i was soooo confident, after I wrote it, i was soooo depressed and on top of that was worried because I didnt study enough for psychology because I didnt have enough time. I prayed soo much yesterday and asked the intercessions of St. Mary, Pope Kyrollos, St. Meena, St George, and St. Abanoub. And i think it helped, as I said, after writing my chem quiz I didnt even want to do anything else, I was jsut so sad and ashamed, and when I went into my psychology quiz, not only was I scared but starting to think SOO negatively. I was thinking God wont help me, theres no hope, im not smart enough to do any of this, and on TOP of that I have a bio exam this sunday. Anyways, we get 10 minutes into the Psychology exam and I actually feel like im doing pretty well, and than the fire alarm rings, the test is post poned to NEXT week thursay. I didnt think about it right away, but as I was walking home I jsut said to myself, finally God heard my prayers and gave me a break and some time to pray and study.
I have another Chem quiz coming up in 2 weeks, its a very difficult chapter, the problem with chemistry in my class is that even if you are able to answer every single qeustion in the text book (which I did), If you dont understand it 100%, youl fail.
Guys, i really need some advice, I usually do very well in the sciences and maths, I dunno if its just because this is my first year, but I thought that especially after failing the 1st quiz I had changed my study habbits and was going to get perfect on the this one. The thing about this quiz is that AFTER we handed it in, i was speaking to my friends "who also found it extremely difficult", and we talked about the questions on the quiz, and they were brining up things that i fully KNEW but for some reasons did do on the quiz, which literally costed my the entire mark.
Im sorry to bore you guys with all this, but i really believe that the more prayers I get the more willing God is to help, please prayy for me.