Right now, I'm so stressed with work, family, school, and a million other things. Over the summer, I went to St. Antony's Monastery, and honestly, that was the first time I actually felt relaxed. (not that a monk's life is easy). I just feel like this world has nothing to offer.
"Do not love the world, nor the things which are in the world, for the world shall pass away and it's always desire"
Ever since I left the monastery, I've been wanting to go back everyday. and i'm sure i'm not the only one who felt this way when going to a monastery. I know it's it's wrong to want to go to a monastery just to escape the pressures of the world.
I guess what I'm trying to say is everyone wants to grow up, have kids, a family, a financially steady job, and just a happy regular life. I don't want any of that. Honestly, I'm just in school right now so I can get a degree, not even for the money.
So my question is: Is it wrong to desire priesthood or monasticism? Is it a 100% calling and 0% choice?