-I feel that my mind is addicted to worry. Realistically speaking, most of the worries I have experienced so far are "unnecessary." Sometimes past cases worry me; also I borrow from the future and worry about it hypothetically. Mostly I think of myself pessimistically, though our Loving God has helped me succeed in my previous studies. For example instead of working hard for the success of my current studies, I fear failure, and waste my time worrying about its consequences. I really hate this state of mind, since it cripples my academic potential. It totally changes my personality. I feel that my mood is extremely inconsistent. At times when I am freed from my worries, I feel relaxed and act with friends in a cheerful manner. Conversely, when I get stressed, I become indolent, sluggish and sober. I wonder that sometimes I feel as if there are two kinds of personalities in me. To give you a simple analogy, you know the difference how your computer works when it is infected by a virus and when it is cleaned from it. Likewise when I am stressed, my feelings and attitude totally differ from the time I am relaxed. I know that our Loving God wants us to live a care-free life, resting in Him. Hence, this is my day-to-day query: why cannot I live rejoicing in the Lord ALWAYS? Why I let my mind to get tired of worry, while I have a heavenly Father who cares a lot for me? What is the difference between me and the unbelievers if I feel restless most of the time? Indeed, the children of God are strong and peaceful. Thus, brothers and sisters, if you are sharing my problems, let us discuss how to get out of stress permanently and enjoy the peace of the Lord unconditionally.
Asking for your prayers,