I wanted some insight from people older than me and who have more experience. I'll get right to it: I was a very good student and received very good marks in secondary school. However, I now attend a very challenging university with a set goal in mind for my career path. However, the more classes I take and the harder they become, I have done very poorly. I don't mean poorly by my standards either (which I admit I set very high for myself which causes a great deal of hardship for me) but very poorly in general. I have had a legitimate fear at one point that I was going to fail a class (which I didn't thank God but still did very poorly in). I do what I'm supposed to do as a student but it just never seems to be good enough anymore.
The career I want doesn't make matter any simpler as it is very selective and hard in general. However, it is what I really want to do with my life. I don't know how to proceed with my future. I can't really imagine myself doing something else. Any thoughts?
On the spiritual side, I have struggled mightily as well (as much if not even more as a student). I have begged (to the point of weeping but to no avail) God for help in every step I take, but to be honest I think he's taking tough love to a whole new level with me. I feel completely ignored and I can certainly say I have lost all trust in him. Unfortunately the struggles don't just stop with my academics but that's a different story.
I would sincerely appreciate all the different perspectives provided by the community and anyone who's willing to pick my brain. I feel like I need a different way of looking at things.