when I am studying at university I feel people are coughing in disgust of me. If they see me go on facebook or have a time out they cough they want me to focus on their conversations if it is time for study for me they cough if I have bad thoughts about them being noisy. I sometimes want to close my eyes and walk through them so I do not see them cough or hear them cough
I think they don't want me to be proud that I am getting work done. When they see me serious they cough. Yet I know studying at uni is much more effective than at home
I feel the same thing in church
antipsychotics harm my body and brain
this leads to me having extreme problems focusing.
I think this is happening to me because I am not calm from spiritual warfare because of my many sins but to everyone in the world this is foolishness
This is the major problem of me focusing now.
I know I am a bit of a wuss and have to take blame for things but it is becoming a heavy burden