I am disillusioned. I really have gotten to the point where I just want to give up. I cannot stand the fact that I fought so hard to get to "the truth" and it is rapidly becoming untruth. Now I am questioning everything and to be frank, I am tired. I am tired of speaking and not being heard. Have your church in whatever way you guys want it. You want protestantism? Go ahead I don't really care anymore, I am tired of fighting hard headed irrational fools.