Recently I've been going through a turbulent stage in my life, and I think God has been trying to show me something. I have an insane amount of pride, although I would never have thought so. I am constantly concerned with how people view me! It's insane, really. I watch how I act, what I say, what I do around people; out of fear that people might not like me, trash talk me, or be displeased by myself. I always thought that this was a confidence problem, but now it seems like it has its roots in pride instead. This concern of how people view me, is really a concern for my own acceptance and love. These fears of being trash-talked or disliked is a concern for my own reputation.
And, as such, to conquer pride you must attack it at the source- yourself. This revelation allowed me to realize that, who cares? I am placing myself at the center of the world- thinking everyone cares about my actions, who I am, and even the words I type now. But, I am really nothing, and although people will indeed talk bad/good about you, does it really matter? If you have that conviction within yourself, not to live for yourself, then God's love will cast out all these fears and life will be a lot easier for you in that sense.
I am very excited over this lesson, but maybe some of you have some things to enlighten me with. In honesty, I am actually afraid that I will go out tomorrow and forget what I have learned, for I have far too long been a victim of this pride, that I do not know how to live without it. Anyone have any tips that will keep you humble?