Do you all know this saying? I feel like it might be an Americanism. It means that when something comes after a long absence, it happens in large amounts or to an intense degree. I mostly hear it and use it in the context of negative things, though I suppose it might not be restricted to negative things alone.
Anyway, it's how I'm feeling lately. Our Lord never guaranteed us an easy life (quite the opposite, in fact), and none of us deserve good things. I can accept that. But I have to be honest and admit that at some point, and I think I'm reaching that point, the fact that I can intellectually accept that as reality kind of breaks down and I'm left to wonder just when it's going to end. I'm not even really mad; more exasperated.
How do you all deal with this feeling when it comes to you? I've honestly fallen out of anything like regular prayer, and would like to re-establish that, but is there anything in particular I can do outside of praying the Agpeya? I don't like the feeling that my spiritual life is a bit of a one act show. Is there anything particular that I can pray or do in order to deal with this problem? I have found myself becoming very short-tempered lately, and am falling into other sins as well, as I suppose could be expected with the general wearing down of resistance and declining quality of life...
It's a tough world out there, and even more dangerous on the inside. I feel like I'm losing the battle on all fronts. Please, all of you: A word, if you can spare it, could help awaken my spirit. I would really appreciate it. Thank you.