I personally find that I can concentrate on the entire mass. Let's say the mass is 2 hours long. I admit, if it is in English, I can really understand and pray every word of the liturgy.
However, as soon as abouna switches to Arabic, or we pray in Coptic, and I don't particularly understand the EXACT meaning of the words, I find it hard to actually pray. I know the hymn, and in some cases, i MAY know the meaning, but generally speaking - whether I know the meaning or not, because it is not in my mother tongue, I feel my prayers are not efficient.
Does anyone else have this problem?
The strangest thing is this:
The liturgy of the Eid (Major Feasts) is SO long, yet I really enjoy them. However, as soon as they start to sing Pinishti, I feel an urgency to just stop praying and take a break.
Would it be wrong therefore to take a break if you find yourself TOTALLY unable to concentrate??? It usually happens in cases where a deacon wants to show off and sing something he's learnt by himself in Coptic.. although I am deeply grateful that his ego has increased and he's happy, it sometimes makes me lose complete concentration.
There was once a time when a deacon sang something from a book NO ONE had heard of, it was in Coptic, and it was so long. We all left the Church. There was absolutely no books translated with respect to the book he was using. It was in complete coptic, and no one knew what he was singing.
Is that bad? I feel if I'm not concentrating, I'm just wasting time.