I haven't been on Tasbeha.org for almost 2 years now, but I felt that I really need help from everyone that visits this website.
I'm 26 years old guy, working in a stable job. I serve in my church as a deacon leader & I teach hymns to kids & adults. Last year I got engaged to one my friends from church, & after staying together for almost 11 month she started treating me in a bad way. Then she told me that she wants to break the engagement because she doesn't have feelings for me anymore. I was very hurt & talked with Abouna (he is her Father of Confession as well) & he told me that I deserve a lot better person. & that she is immature & doesn't deserve me. Anyway.....things started getting worse, all my friends started leaving me, most of them left to other countries for work, & the rest of them started treating me in a different way. They started ignoring me completely. I don't know what to do, I feel that life is very tough without good friends that truly care about me. I don't know who to talk to or who to open up & share my stories with. I sometimes think about immigrating to another country to find good friends, but I come back to myself & say "I have a stable job, & I want to live near my parents". On the same time I want to get married, but there are no suitable girls in my church. The feeling of lonliness is killing me everyday. Everyday I come back from work & I don't find anything to do, I find myself lonely & sad...I really don't know what to do. I really need your help. Please let me know what you think