I know I posted about this topic before or something similar
Is it right to say that we should not try to be like those monks who did not want to see the face of women at all ..maybe e.g st arsenius.. if we are not sure whether we should be a monk or get married?
Is it right to say that its proof that God may want you to be a monk if even when you are living in the world and social with women you do not feel lust for those women and you do not want to marry them either? But if you want to get married then God does not want you to be a monk... atleast not yet?
When you be a monk then maybe you will be tempted more from the devil so that you may receive crowns and have blessing maybe in this life too..
maybe st arsenius did not struggle with lust the same as when he was a monk because God protected him.
I dont know if I make alot of sense..
I do not talk much with women or even anyone.. so I can not know if I want to be married and I do not know if I can live pure with them either..
I want to know how can I know whether God wants me to be a monk or get married?