My story is long and complicated, but I am a single female, currently living in Cairo. I hold a Saudi passport, except I haven't really lived there (or in the Arab world for that matter), and my Arabic isn't that great. Most of my friends here in Cairo are Copts, they are family to me, people I've known for years. I grew up around Christians as well (I went to Catholic school). I am not going to get into the wheres, whys and hows of my upbringing/family background/etc., because it could put my life (and theirs) at risk. I am eager to finally accept Jesus after years of contemplation and secret longing (I was more of a spiritual theist, like my father, though we were outwardly Muslim), I can no longer ignore what's in my soul...but I am also extremely fearful. I will be getting baptized soon, it will be a very private affair (you can imagine why). I am sad and frustrated that I'll have to keep my faith/conversion a secret for as long as I remain in the Arab world...I could get killed for it, due to my nationality, and the ones who helped me convert could get targeted by extremists if word got out. But I know with all my heart and soul that the Lord is with me, with us. This is my cross to bear. I considered escaping to the States, to seek asylum. I could assume a new identity, be my true self, freely practice my faith, and have a chance to live a normal life...but my father is old and ill, and I feel guilty leaving him behind. What would you do if you were in my situation? Please pray for me...any sort of advice will be greatly appreciated.
I will be deleting this post soon.