I have been married to a man who is baptized Catholic. I am baptized Orthodox. A few years back, he introduced himself to my parents. He had told my parents and I that he was very interested in becoming Orthodox and that he loved it after he met with the Coptic Orthodox priest and attended the Sunday liturgy at our church a few times to learn more about Orthodoxy in an effort to be baptized at my Coptic Orthodox Church and finally happily marry me.
Then everything changed and I couldn't help myself...temptation was very great and I failed.. as I followed him away from my parents... he decided he wasn't ready for the whole conversion thing and that he was happy being Catholic. We were in love with each other and didn't want to leave each other, and the only way to do this was to leave my parents' house and run away. I lived with him until we were married after 2 years and of course I wasn't married inside my church, we were just legally married and had a small wedding with a few of our friends attending.
it's been 5 years since my tragic exit from my parents house telling them I'm leaving to live my life with this 21 year old, at the time, and thats what I was choosing.
I've been away from God, because I was scared. I knew he didn't accept me anymore, and that's just what I feel. .. I used to teach a Sunday school class at my church and I loved it, and wanted to continue but I was so ashamed of my myself I stopped going. What would be the right thing to do now. Can I continue to be married to this man and live my life as an Orthodox at church and with God and ask for his forgiveness? I just want God's acceptance and I want to feel His presence Again.