So this is the first time I've been here but i thought i would try it out. I feel so weak, and i would get these random bursts of strength(only way i can really describe it) but they would fade after a while and i would be back to my usual self. I left home and completely started my life over which is exactly what i needed and its been about 3 years now and other than cutting people out of my life that needed to go and a better relationship with my mother, I'm still the same weak naive little girl. I am a huge push over when it comes to my friends and tend to drop everything and anything going on with me to help my friends but don't feel like my friends do the same for me. I want to make my family proud of me but they keep saying that I'm just selfish and lazy and don't really care about them so maybe what I'm showing isn't what I'm feeling. I know my family loves me but I wish instead of always telling what I'm doing wrong , they would encourage me more but that isn't really the egyptian way and I've told them many times about this but it doesn't help. Of course there is also the girly feeling of wanting to meet someone especially since all my friends younger and my age are getting engaged, married or even having children and i don't have close guy friend. Honestly I haven't been going to church or praying as much lately just because i feel my heart isn't in it and my faith is diminishing. I know that my life isn't all bad, i have a lot of blessings in my life thank God but they are hard to see sometimes. I know when i get like this i start doing stupid things that i end up regretting lately so thats why i thought i would try just kind of putting my heart out there and seeing what everyone thinks. I don't even know what i need to do, i just know i need help. Any advice?