Hello everyone, I'm new here and as I may not be Coptic I'm reading on it and converting one day beause of marriage - so I figure get into it now :)
Anyway, I have this one naggingly annoying habit.
It all started over a year and some odd months ago, just around the time of my mom's death. Ever since my mom died I have been getting very nervous and anxious. Basically, because I fear of losing the people I love more now than ever before.
This is how it is: I will know that my fiance is doing something else, but some nagging, worryful thoughts at the back of my mind will play with my emotions and my logic. I will think "Well, he is driving home ... " but then the evil little voices will come at me "Well, what if he crashed, or got stabbed, or some freak accident happened?" I find myself worrying over nothing I even do it with my sister and my dad. So, for him this will result in many many missed worried calls and texts and my embarassment of over reacting once again.
I even called 10 times to try to reach my dad when he was in the washroom ... when I thought some horrible thing had happened to him :(
I mostly want to know if this is happening to anyone else (because it sure hasn't happened to my dad or my sister - they have their own way of grief over my mom). I feel it's mostly because knowing that my dad is at home alone most of the time now, and having finally found that person I love and want to be with, well ... I really don't want anything to happen like that to me and what I could have for my life.
This is starting to take over my life and my way of thinking. And honestly, starting to make me feel a little ridiculous ...
I am weak, please help me God ...
Any opinions of what to be done??