I lie awake most nights, just thinking about my life
I wonder what's my purpose and why i'm still here tonight
my life's so hard to get through
I just don't understand why
people all seem to hate me although i really try
I have many demons to fight, many things keep me up at night
sometimes i wish i could just end it all, it's just to much to bare
society is so nasty, people aren't that nice
I'm bullied when I make a stance and even when I don't
It's everyone around me, sometimes there's no escape
I feel like i'm a little child who's trying not to cry
I need my God to strengthen me - but where is He?
It hurts so much when the lashes just keep coming
there's no one there to rely on, or to keep me going
I've tried to hide it for so long, to smile and get through
but trying isn't working now, I'm really done, I'm through
Where is my God, my church or friends - they're no where to be seen
if only God could help me now, reach out and pull me up
I'm drowning in my sorrows, I'm losing this struggle fast
my eyes are swelling up as i try to fight the tears
Please help me, save me, love me - is that too much to ask?
The hurt is just to much for me, it's bare, it cuts, it's real.