Hello tasbeha.org community. I am new to this forum and I had a question. I was born in the Orthodox church and yet I feel as if I know nothing about it. I feel very ignorant when it comes to church history, church rites and stuff like that. Over the last few years I have grown farther and farther away from the church and I would like to come back to it. It breaks my heart to see what I used to be like and how close I used to be to the church and how I went to a point of hating God. I want to work hard to build my relationship with God and I want to work hard for the service of God. I want to start from the beginning, as if I do not know anything at all about the Orthodox church. I do not want information on only one church, I would like information on any and all of them...Coptic, Russian, Greek, Serbian, Armenian, etc. I learn the best when I read so books are my best friends. But if there are videos those would be good too and any audio is good too.
I hope God can forgive me for what I have become and help me go back to Him. Please pray for me.