I am a young deacon.i recently became a deacon but havent yet confessed as i didnt get a chance to before i became a deacon.now i am told i have to confess in the near future but i am having trouble as i am embarassed to confess the really bad sins just because everyody thinks i am good and stuff (which im not) don't want abouna to think bad of me. What shall I do?
I used to think this two sins were harmless as my enviroment shows them to be harmless but i now know that they are big sins.
Now I have two very very big sins that i need to confess. It kills to go to the front of the church with these sins on my consciemce. I have stopped this sins and i want to repent for my sins but i dont know how ,i dont even know how to say them in my language (tigrigna).
+ I know that abounas can't tell your confession to anyone or change his opinion about anyone but I still feel that everytime they see me after it will be weird.
+ The other point is acctually explaining what I did. They are so bad and i don't even know how to explain them. These sins are common among teens and youths and are bad habbits. What shall I do?
+ I am young so for my age it is a big sin. But still how do I say it to abouna?
Please help me and pray for me a lot because i am ineed of these .
The sins were masterbation and pornography but i dont know how to explain them .pls help me .i am super stressed.