I wanted to take this time to apologise to all of you. Seeing as my last post here had well over 1000 views I'd assume many of you know who I am and the post I made regarding leaving my faith.
I admit it was in poor taste and it could have been brought up in a different manner, but it was how I saw things. Like I said, I was silently observing and judging and I just brought my thoughts all together. I was frustrated and I took it out on you and that's not within good ethics.
I thought I was alone in going through that but my post received a lot of attention and I met many people who went through the same thing I've been and a lot longer. We formed our own tiny community on reddit
and while we are still small, discussions go well there. We've also had some people here posting over there. We never shut down any counterarguments before despite clear attempts at proselytising; unlike what happened with my post here and we welcome anyone to join.
Some of you regarded my last post as an attempt at proselytising Atheism. I just want to say that the faith you grew up in (or adopted) was shoved down my throat for as long as I can remember so if you felt like that, take that feeling and add to it around a decade or two. That's what I've been through so you know the source of my frustration. Every time I was told to do something or something bad happens "because God says so/it's God will", seeing people blindly following religion and telling me to do the same. That's proselytism and I will not tolerate it. I've been lurking around a bit but I made myself scarce but on some occasions I would give my thoughts and leave, unless I was asked about them later on.
What prompted me to do with was one of our subreddit posts. Most Copts seem to think of Atheists as those bitter angry people that just wanna throw a fit because people aren't following their ideals. I for one do not care what anyone thinks of me as long as my family is left out of it (unfortunately, if I was found out by my church they would also be subject to the gossip and lose their standing in it and my parents and grandparents would get a heart attack if they knew I deconverted). I will say that I'm somewhat irate and I've always had anger-management issues since my teens that I'm keeping under control now, but I am not that kind of Atheist (but I don't deny their existence) and many of us at reddit are a great bunch to be around as long as you contribute to discussions without proselytising.
With that said, I am sorry for my actions here. That's the crux of this post. You can choose to accept it, or not, it's up to you.